And I refuse to record today's weigh-in. Over the weekend we lost a family friend to cancer and my cousin passed away on Sunday unexpectedly so needless to say I knew the weigh-in was going to go bad too. I typically weigh myself every Monday morning which I still am doing too. Well on Monday my scale had shown that I had lost roughly two pounds in a week which is my goal, but then when I stepped on the scale today it said I had gained that plus another pound back! I cant honestly understand how in just a couple days that happened but I do know that your weight can and will fluctuate by up to 10 pounds day to day and fluctuate by the hour too. I know that I use food to help with mourning and depression but I had been doing so good and not giving in to my cravings for junk and sweets till my cousin passed away. Since then I have had more chocolate chip cookies then I can count and so far ate half a bag of tostios scoops with jalapeno cheddar cheese dip. Ya I know that that isnt good but I guess growing up I wasnt taught or just didnt learn a better way to deal with grief and loss. I have relied on food all my life to make me happy. I know this and I want to change it and I have tried to hard in the past couple years but bad habits are hard to break especially when you dont have the money or means to buy healthier choices for food and snack.
I guess its a good thing that I have 20 days till the next TapouT weigh-in that I need to do, although if things keep going wrong like they always seem to do then Im not expecting much from it.